1/4 of the Way There

Today was my 10 week appointment and exactly two weeks since we had last seen our little bean. I have been feeling pretty bad still, so I was fairly hopeful that things were continuing to progress. With my first miscarriage, when I made it to 9 1/2 weeks, my symptoms greatly subsided prior to finding out we had miscarried. As hoped, everything looked great. Our little guy was super active, flipping around and waving at us. I think giving us a little fist pump so we would know everything is alright. ;-) Heart beat was at 174 - which I thought seemed high, but my doctor assured me that it was great. Today was the first time that the nurse did my ultrasound rather than the doctor. When she walked in the room, I immediately asked if Dr K was there. She nicely said yes, but he's with other patients so I am going to take care of you today. That made me nervous - I wanted the doctor!! She was fine though and I stumped her at the end with some questions so we got to see the doctor anyways.


I asked about when I should stop taking the metformin. He said I could stop now, in his research, it doesn't reduce the risk of miscarriage. I asked him if I should wean off of it and he said, no, i could just stop. Then I asked him if it would be OK if i weaned off it. Stopping a medicine that impacts your hormones cold turkey seems like it could be a shock to the system. I know he is the doctor and all, but I will just feel better with the weaning. He said that was fine.


I asked about when I should stop taking the prometrium (progesterone). He said I could stop now. That one is just one pill a day, so can't really wean yourself off of it. So that one I will stop cold turkey. Maybe in one or two more nights - I am scared to change anything that I am doing! Then he asked if we were ready to go back to my OB. After exchanging glances, my husband and I agreed that we'd rather come back at 12 weeks for one more check. He was great about it and said, whenever I am ready.


So it still hasn't really sunk in - I still feel like I am an imposter for a pregnant woman. I am definitely not shouting it from the rooftops. I have a fairly large group of friends and family who
are intimately aware of our journey, so they all know, but I am definitely not to the point of telling people at work, casual acquaintances, etc. I just feel like if I tell these people, it will be taken away from me again. My general plan is to hold out until after the holidays - I am already starting to look like I ate the entire turkey on Thanksgiving, but hopefully I can continue to disguise it for the next few weeks. Oh yeah, and another really exciting announcement that I have been holding back. I found out right around the time that we were trying to conceive that my sister had gotten pregnant. It is her first as well and is also something of a miracle. We are two weeks apart....I just thing this has to be meant to be!


Here are baby's 10 week photos:
This is a hand (although i think it looks like a foot!)


Here he (ok, or she) is!