I have thought about this day for a while now. The day that I would leave my safe, anonymous bloggosphere and enter back into the mainstream world of baby blogging. It's funny, I actually started in the blogging world about 18 months ago with the typical "family - we are having a baby!" blog - I was about 12 weeks pregnant with my first pregnancy - that i had worked darn hard for by the way. The blog was down about as quickly as it was up - i learned shortly after launching that my precious baby #1 had actually miscarried around 9 1/2 weeks. I stayed out of the blogging world as we greived that loss, still stayed away as we conceived and lost baby #2. It wasn't until I realized that I had a problem that most of my friends and family just couldn't fully relate to that I truly discovered the wonderful outlet that is the blogging world.
I found comfort in reading about the experiences of others. Comfortable enough that I started this blog. It was my little outlet that i shared with only my closest family members. I came here to look for hope in other's successes, offer comfort when other's struggled and mainly to share - here I relived all of the pain and gory details of my infertility and losses that i seemed to hold back from most of my friends.
There is a part of me that is very sad to be leaving this comfortable place. I feel a little like a traitor, abandoning the troops in the trenches. But I know that I must move forward and prepare for this wonderful gift that God has in store for us. She deserves to have a place where friends and relatives, wherever they may be located, can dote on her every move and milestone. She deserves a blog free of all of the sadness and heartbreak that I have carried with me up to this point.
To all of my blogging friends - I can never express how much my time here has meant to me. So many of you have given me words of encouragement over the past year. The blogging world is unique in that we are bonded together by our shared experiences - not by location or socio-economic status or interests. We are all very different people who have found comfort in our little corner of the internet. I plan to keep checking up on everyone and each time I say my prayers, i will say one for each of you - that you someday get to go through this same transition and experience your own miracle.
For those that wish to continue to follow my journey, I'll be moving to http://polanskifamily.blogspot.com/
