May the sickness continue...

Well, the two weeks passed relatively quickly between appointments. My 24/7 nauseua has been a great reassurance that things were progressing as they should. Yep, you heard me correct, I pretty much feel sick ALL of the time. The good news is I never actually throw up, but the bad news is I ALWAYS feel like I could at any time. But let it be known, that I am in no way complaining about this. I told my doctor today that I would much rather feel sick all the time then be worried about the baby. Dr. K insisted on giving me a prescription for an anti-nauseua meds - said they were safe for me and for the baby. I may fill the prescription just to take for special occasions (like maybe on Thanksgiving or when we go out for my birthday tomorrow). We'll see. So the ultrasound looked great, measuring 8 weeks, 1 day and heartbeat at about 159 bpm. It was such an awesome feeling to see (and hear) his little heart beating away on the screen - I just wanted to say, good job baby, hang in there, keep up the good work. I guess I can still tell him. Till I see you again little baby - see you in two weeks - hope you enjoy Thanksgiving!

Utter Relief and Complete Excitement

I am going to be very honest - going into today's appointment, I had pretty much convinced myself that I was no longer pregnant. I really hate that I have been SO negative. I just haven't been able to let myself believe that this time will be different - I am guessing mainly to protect myself from feeling the horrible pain that comes with losing a baby. Although I have to say, emotionally, I have been feeling pretty bad the past week or so and I don't even have a reason to grieve. Ok, I just realized I haven't even gotten into the fantastic details of the appointment. We saw the baby and his flickering little heart beat. He is measuring at 6 weeks and 2 days, about a day ahead - already an over-acheiver! My doctor said everything looks perfect. When he began the ultrasound, and I was bracing myself for "the news," he immediately said, everything looks GREAT. (He must be trained to tell people right away when things are good!) Here is baby's 6 week, 2 day picture. Sorry it is a picture of a picture, next time I will bust out the scanner!

(The baby is the small white blob in the upper left corner where the measurement marks are)



Ok, so that brings us to my new outlook. I made a deal with someone really close to me that if this appointment went well, then I would be more positive going forward. And to be honest, I forgot how great it feels to be happy to be pregnant. I got that little taste of giddiness when I left the doctor today....like hey, yeah, that's right, I am pregnant - and my baby has a heartbeat. I am going to take it one day at a time, but each day, I am going to thank God for his blessing of this pregnancy and enjoy these days bonding with my baby. I felt SO confident about this as I was leaving the doctor that I opted to go along with their standard protocol of seeing me back in two weeks (although my sweet doctor did offer to see me next week if I wanted!). Yep, that's right, me and my baby will be back in 13 days for a little check in and for another photo shoot.


Oh yeah, and if you noticed my gender references, husband and I both are having "it's a boy" intuitions.