A Milestone

Well, today was our 12 week appointment at our RE. (I actually had a mini panic attack last week, so I ended up having an unplanned week 11 visit as well.) And although I have convinced myself numerous times in the past 8 weeks that something must be wrong, all appears to be right on track. It's almost getting to the point that I am like, wow, I might really have a baby in June! Still not complete belief but have definite moments of hope. I am still not telling the masses. I don't feel comfortable talking openly about me actually having a baby. I am afraid if I get too confident, it will be taken away. I know it's silly, and I know that has no bearing on the outcome, but I am just a little gun shy.

So today I said good-bye to my RE Dr K. It was a surreal moment. I have been seeing this man like a two to three times a month since the summer. I didn't know what to say, so I told him, thank you so much for eveything and I hope I never see you again. :-) He laughed and said, i hope not either, but I hope you'll share pictures. Even leaving the office was odd - didn't have to stop at reception to set up my next appointment time, just slipped out like I had never been there.

Tomorrow I call Dr. D's office and tell them I am coming back and see when they want to see me. I am expecting some time in mid January. That will likely be another strange experience - going back there. I love Dr. D and can't wait to share this with her, but I am a little scared too. When I go back there, I become just another pregnant lady among a sea of pregnant women. I will lose my "handle with care" tag. I hope I am ready for that.

On the pregnancy front, still not feeling great. At times, I feel like my digestive track has completely shut down and everything just sits inside me. Not a good feeling. :-( No complaints though - I haven't missed any work yet and I am hopeful that I am just a couple weeks away from feeling much better.

Here are the much coveted 12 week photos.