5 week photo - the black bean looking thing in
the upper left of the picture is him!

Work has been crazy stressful lately, and Monday night I woke up in the middle of the night in a somewhat state of panic about all of the work stress that I am under. I am so fearful that the stress will somehow negatively impact the pregnancy, and I know if something happens I will wonder if it was stupid work stress that caused it. So right then and there at 3 am as I lay in bed, I decided that I was going to tell my boss about what was going on (and what had been going on over the last year with the miscarriages - he only knew about my first one). I also asked to work from home for a few days - I can't stop working on my current project because I am really needed, but I do think working from home helps shield me from some of the stress and urgency around the whole project. I was SO happy with the supportive response that I have gotten not just from my direct boss but the entire management chain up to the top. They have told me that I can work from home whenever I feel it's necessary for my physical or emotional health.
So I am back to trying to be positive, but honestly, I am scared to death of all of this ending. Lots of prayers, positive thinking and deep breathing over the next 9 days until I can see my sesame seed again!
Hooray for the sesame seed! I totally hear you about the stress - I'm a lawyer and I manage my own office. I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night freaking out about something. I find it helps to do deep meditative breathing, at least to get the heart rate back to normal. It's great that your job is so accommodating!
ReplyDeleteHooray for one little sesame seed in exactly the right place!!! Happy for u!
ReplyDeleteYay for one sesame seed!!! And an awesome beta! I love that your boss and everyone is so accomodating - that's wonderful.
ReplyDeleteYEAH! That is awesome you got to see it. My work has also been super supportive and I couldn't have made it through without it. I work from home all the time and it definitely insulates you from the drama.
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