Is this a joke?

Well, today was cycle day 11 and the day that the nurse at my RE's office had scheduled me to come in for my first mid-cycle ultrasound. A quick recap, one week ago, i went in for my baseline ultrasound, they had found a large cyst on my right ovary, but had done bloodwork and it didn't appear to be producing any hormones, so i was cleared to start my clomid 100mg. So i took the clomid on days 4 - 8 which meant my last dose was this past Sunday. On Monday, i had some strange symptoms that i thought seemed ovulatory like, but i thought, it's only day 9, this is just a side effect of the clomid. Last night (tuesday), i was having quite a bit of pressure and discomfort in my abdomen - mostly centered near my right ovary. I even told my sister on the phone last night - "i am sure that when they do my ultrasound, they are going to find that my cyst has gotten even bigger because it is bothering me."

So i show up this morning for my 8am ultrasound and was surprised when Dr K comes in rather than the nurse who did my baseline ultrasound. I kind of think he might have walked into the wrong room (as he was a little disoriented as to what he was seeing me for), but just the same, he recovered and went with it. So he first checked out my lining, then my left side (not seeing anything there), then my right side. That's when he asks me, "now what day of your cycle are you on?" So at that point, i am like, "is my cyst still there? I was having some pains last night and was certain that it was going to have grown." Nope, cyst is gone. And there is no sign of follicles! But there is something in my right ovary that could be the remnants of a busted follicle (i.e. ONE THAT HAS ALREADY OVULATED!) So he says, well, it looks like it's possible that you have already ovulated. I just about fell out of the stirrups (is that even possible?!). Then OF COURSE he asks, have you had intercourse recently? At this point, i want to cry. No, we haven't had intercourse, we have been gearing up for the marathon trying that would typically occur days 12 through 21 of my cycle. I felt like a horrible patient at that point, here i am crying to a fertility doctor and I am not even holding up my end of the bargain - TRYING to get pregnant! So he tells me that we will do blood work to confirm that i ovulated, and that if i had pain last night, it's possible that i ovulated recently and it probably would be worth calling my husband and trying as soon as possible.

So dear husband and I did what we needed to do at our lunch break - so romantic! And Dr. K's office called me this afternoon and told me that my progesterone level was a 6, so i had very likely ovulated and i should just wait for my period or a positive pregnancy test.

So here i am, the evening of day 11 and my cycle is over before it even began. I didn't even have a chance to fret over it. I was pretty distraught leaving the doctor's office this morning, but as the day wore on, i realized, i am thankful that the clomid worked, and this was just yet another reminder that we are not in control. So, check back in T minus 14 days for the arrival of my period or the alternate (which i refuse to type out in that i might somehow jinx myself).